Hi guys!

 Warning: This post might get a bit depressing. 

It feels as though every other day I find myself in a massive depressive episode. Happiness for me is extremely fleeting, it goes away as quickly as it comes and leaves me feeling emptier each time. I want to push myself as I'm currently working on starting a business, getting into a new job and going back to school in the next year but right now I feel as though I can't see past December. It feels as though I'm stuck in a box and unable to get myself out and back into the land of the living. I'm alive, I'm awake, I'm breathing, I'm functioning but it's as though I'm a mindless robot, who's easily angered, easily triggered, easily saddened, easily full of negativity but not able to find stability, light, joy, motivation, anything to teether me to my current life. 

Who am I?, where am I going?, when will I get there?, what's next?, when will I stop feeling as though this is the end?, when will I be content, fulfilled, happy, something?. The thoughts in my head are loud and negative and I don't feel as though I have enough support to not do the one thing everyone is telling me not to. At this point it feels like it's only a matter of time. Can anyone else relate? I'm sure there are many who can.

Anyway let's just see the rest of 2022 through and here's to hoping that everything sorts itself out (my positive thought for today). 

Trial & Error