Do you have motivation?

 If I'm being honest I don't think I've ever had true motivation. I've always just wanted to be happy and content while I'm living but it's starting to feel like not only is finding true and genuine happiness impossible but as though I'll always be stuck in the desert of "where do I go from here" I can't live peacefully and I'm not quite meant for the rat race 😪😣. 

Maybe this is why I sleep so much. 

Trial & Error.