Day 26 of the 31 Days of Self Love Challenge.

 Day 26 - What parts of yourself are you ashamed of? What does your shadow self look like?

I guess I am ashamed of my severe case of procrastination. My inability to move out of my state of despair and helplessness, this feeling that I've given up completely, and that's what's keeping me from trying after I have basically given up. To put it more simply I have forsaken trying to maintain and forge new bonds because I'm one foot in and one foot out of living, I'm a zombie with no future plans because everything is the same color and every minute of every day feels the same, mundane. 

My shadow self is complex. It is filled with disgust at my current state of living, my inability to try, and my existence in general. It's confused, angry, sad, and over it all.