Day 15 of the 31 Days of Self Love Challenge.

 Day 15 - What are you afraid to ask for? What do you need to speak up about?

What am I afraid to ask for? Help. When I am mentally unwell reaching out is one of the toughest things for me because no one really seems to understand what I'm experiencing or if they do they've conquered the art of self-medicating by ignoring what they're going through even if that means ignoring a friend who's suffering. Out of sight out of mind, I guess. But I can't say I fully blame them because not everyone is equipped to deal with a suicidal, depressed friend. I mean if I'm tired of always being sad why wouldn't they be tired of being around a sad person also?. 

What do I need to speak up about? The reason I am having such a hard time getting out of my constant state of laziness and procrastination is that I have more or less given up on life. It may seem to some that I am stuck in a rut or still trying even if it's half-hearted but I know it feels almost like I'm bidding my time. This line of thought is not good but the lack of support just makes it so I continue to sink deeper and deeper into constant despair day by day sadly. Nobody knows this but me.