Well................😒

 So I made a post some time ago about how I'm well aware that I'm the black sheep of my family and how it no longer bothers me because it is what it is right? Well turns out even when you know the truth about something it can still catch you off guard,

Every other day my family does or says something that reminds me that I am one of the least important members of the family and it may always be that way because I guess that's just how the things work out sometimes. But you know what makes this suck even more? 😅It's the fact that as the oldest all the responsibility falls on my shoulders to be the most mature, the most understanding, the most available for everyone because why not I guess. And of course if I try to be a little selfish, set boundaries and put some focus on myself well that's not going to happen without a fight right? 

Ugh I'm exhausted and I'm tired of being sad and playing second fiddle and that translates to almost every aspect of my life including friendships. I guess I'm supposed to bear it all because I'm the eldest, whatever!!! 😓😒.

Well Merry Grinchmas Guys.

Trial & Error