Fear of Taking Risks and trying new things

I am not the biggest fan of taking risks I'm not going to lie. I like the idea of trying new things but the actual execution scares me greatly. I think I used to be good at taking chances when I was younger which makes quite a bit of sense since I was younger and didn't know any better but now that I'm older and more cautious and a bit jaded the idea of going outside of my comfort zone is terrifying. 

There's also the fact that I have anxiety and have been repeatedly scarred from my second to last job a bit, which taught me that not everyone that smiles and laughs with you is a friend or has your best interest at heart. Additionally going out of your way and nature is not always beneficial. Sometimes going outside of your comfort zone under the guise of self improvement can bite you in the ass, hard. 

Or course being a self proclaimed wuss with massive social anxiety has only ended up leaving me feeling saddened at all the opportunities I've missed out on which is why I now sit in present time relaying my issues in a blog on the internet hoping to achieve what exactly? Hhhhhmmmm I guess maybe peace of mind. See this in and of itself is a huge risk for me and it's one that has inspired me to take tiny tiny baby steps towards not remaining stuck in limbo but I am also choosing to do this at my own pace. So here I am, taking my time and starting slow. Do come along on this chaotic journey with me 😊.

Trial & Error.