Fears

Day after day it gets admittedly harder to leave my house. If I didn't have bills to pay I don't think I'd be able to leave my bed. The thought of having to interact with people causes me way too much anxiety to be normal. These days it's less about hating my job and more about fearing the unknown, being forced to converse with strangers and just participating in society. I'd much prefer to stay indoors even though I know that it's not good for my mental health, it's just that people are scary and I'd rather avoid them as much as humanly possible. 

To say that I'm one step away from becoming a hermit or any other form of a person that prefers to never leave their house and stay far away from people is not an understatement. I don't know what it is but the older I get the worse my social anxiety gets and the more I think that given how advanced the world is getting it would be way too easy for me to just work from home and handle any major expenses from the comfort and confines of my residence. 

Call me lame but I think it's the best thing to distance yourself from too many people and certain situations and circumstances because honestly it's overwhelming in the worst ways. Anyway sorry if this is discombobulated or not but I just had to get that off my mind so yeah.