So friendships am I right?

Does anyone else struggle with trusting people? Whether they're people that have hurt you in the past or people who are new to you. Do you struggle with the concept of life long friendships and whether they're something sustainable? Well I know I do.

I have the hardest time trusting people but my mistrust doesn't only come from being hurt numerous times by so called friends but also due to the fact that I have this steady feeling in my gut that genuine friendships are an impossibility. Thus every time someone hurts me my mind brings forth the question of whether long lasting genuine friendships are really a probability or if many of us are deluding ourselves by believing that the people closest to us are actually our friends, whether these people would go the extra mile to help us in our time of need or would be with us until death as in friends forever but in real life instead of fiction. I don't know I think these are valid questions to have after the umpteenth time of being screwed over by so called friends, left to pull myself out of the pit of darkness by people who promised to be with me no matter what, the same people who reappear magically once I'm a functioning human being once again. 

Yup, well just thought I'd put that out there and see if anyone else felt the same because these thoughts often plague my overthinking mind on a daily. Whenever I'm trying to remind myself that God is with me and I don't need friends because they'll just hurt me anyway and of course the age old I'm better off by alone slogan. I mean you guys let me know because I think these are all valid thoughts and feelings to have aren't they? I for one am getting exhausted with giving my time and energy to people who take but never give and then leave so I'm just trying to understand if I'm alone in this line of thinking or truly the odd one out because it is a lot and I'd love to stop wasting my time and energy on people who don't deserve me. 

Talk to me 😁

Trial & Error.